“Anger is an energy” but unless you can find a target on which to direct this energy it becomes self-destructive. Directed energy gets turned into work. Undirected energy is ultimate chaos looking for a way – any way – to decrease its entropy and spread itself evenly across the universe.
I find myself in this same state of ultimate chaos. I am a roiling cloud of undirected and undirectable anger searching for release. “I am become Azathoth, the destroyer of worlds.” I am terrified that unless I can find a way to turn potential energy into work, I will turn green and destroy stuff.