They do say time cures all, but I can imagine you are caught between time eventually dumbing the pain and loyalty to the memory of your girls. This must be hard. My only unprofessional busibody thought here is that you also own it to your potential future child to welcome them into the world free of guilt and regret. Your girls would understand and I am sure be looking over you with love.

For what it is worth, I think that going through the motions of short term activities will eventually lead to long term plans, and in the meantime keep you moving forward. I admire your strength.

Please forgive me if any of my comments offend or hurt. It is not my intention.